Life goes on and happiness does come!

It has been almost two years since my engagement to Jeremiah was broken. Since then i haven't really dated anyone very seriously. In fact, I had been feeling totally stuck in rut in life. Not just in love, but i wasn't growing much as a person. I was just there, sitting in my room watching movies. I needed a change.
Earlier this year i decided to go back to Dixie. I didn't really want to go to school, but i felt that i needed to be in St. George for some reason. So i figured it was school that i was supposed to be doing, even though i really don't have a motivation for school.
I am Now in St. George, i have been living with my friends, Megan and Taylor and their baby. When i first got here we hung out with their friend Jacob. It turns out that he was in my singles ward when i was at Dixie last and we were on the same committee. ANYWHO, i wanted him to ask me out all semester, and finally at the end of October he did. Our first date felt like the tenth and we have been together ever since...it is only mid Dec. now, but it feels much longer.
He is everything i ever wanted. He is strong in the LDS faith. He makes me feel like i am the most important thing in his world.  He even wrote a song for me for Christmas. Not only did he write it for me, but he wrote it for me to sing. I mean... how darn romantic is that?!?! We are both silly and love music. He is a music major and he is an amazing singer! i may post some of his stuff on my blog in the future. I am truly happy right now!! He is coming to my place for Christmas this year and i am so excited for that.

And on top of all of that I passed all of my classes with kick butt grades. Life is awesome right now!!

When something bad or sad happens in our lives just remember, life goes on and happiness does come. Maybe not on our own time table, but it does come.

(500) Days of Summer...

So, i have wanted to watch '500 Days of Summer" for a few years now and everyone LOVES that movie. I finally watched it last night.  Under normal circumstances, yes, i would live that movie, but it just reminded me of Elmer and me. I am the Joseph Gordon-Levitt character and he is Zooey.
No, as pathetic as this is i am still not over it. We broke up May 21 of 2011 and it is now Feb. 13 of 2013. What the hell? This is so stupid!! My lack of dating life isn't helping my situation. I need a different singles ward. I love my ward but i have been in the ward with the same guys for five years if they haven't asked me out yet, they wont. and if they do they just expect a good make-out every time or something. and then when we do go out or whatever, they pretend i don't exist when we are at church. I don't want to be someones secret!!  I want to be able to tell people " yeah we are soooo dating!!"   gosh i want to date!!!
 I'm sorry my blog is depressing and 97% is about or has something to do with Elmer, the one who won't leave my mind.
I Asked him once why we couldn't be friends anymore and he said that he wasn't ready to reconnect with me in a "platonic" way. so.... what about it is he not ready for? i am just a normal girl who wants a friendship...what is it he is not ready for? i gave him plenty of time... two years of time. I even gave him four years of time before we actually started dating. All i give him is time. anyways, i am still unhappy. it is not his fault, it is my own. He moved on like he was supposed to, i am just the fool who hasn't found a way to let go. The End.